Enough

Where do I stand on this subject? What are my beliefs regarding this subject? Gastric bypass. Surgery to fix the problem of being overweight. There's a part of me that really wants this to be the answer. I would do this surgery myself if I believed it to be the answer. That would mean that the problem was strictly about weight. I believe the problem to be more complex that that. Last night I fell asleep asking God what to think about this. Sometime around 2 am I woke to this; Surgically imposed discipline ......or.......spiritually empowered discipline. I have to believe this was from the Lord 'cause I can't put words together in the middle of the night
Surgically imposed discipline. That's really what the surgery does. It makes it impossible to overeat. Weight loss will follow. is this success? I guess it is if this is the only goal. I know I personally want more. I want to feel the thrill of walking in obedience. I really want to know that God is what makes it happen. I really want to know that even without surgery God will help me lose this weight.
What would I say to an alcoholic? Sorry....there isn't a surgical solution for you. There isn't anything to do. Please Lord you have to be enough.

I have to admit a certain amount of frustration and panic of my own right now. I see my two best friends considering this and hear them say that nothing else works. The desperation is palpable and completely understand it. Oh, how I wish I didn't. I do. I feel it frequently. I look for encouragement and find discouragement. I look for hope and find despair. I look for direction and find confusion.

I'm looking to you Lord. I'm going to keep asking and hoping you hear me.